So, I'm sitting here in drafting...even though nowhere on my schedule does it say I'm signed up for drafting...chilling out thinking wow...I'm leaving for a distant country in 14 hours...oh my gosh...which makes for very little...nay...extremely minute infinetismal amount of concentration or stimulation ability...so I went for tyler's laptop (which I'm on right now) and then remembered...wow I forgot how much our school sucks and that there is absolutely nowhere you can go anymore on our computers in school anymore....absolutely nowhere...lovely network...lovely school...lovely laptops...ugh...but yes so I realized wow I haven't updated my blog in quite some time so ta-da here I am!!!  I came to alot of wow's today...

So yes...I'm leaving for Spain tomorrow at 4:30 in the morning, bright and early to deal with Senora H."Miss Hellstrom" the bipolar queen of Espana...gotta love it...I plan on sleeping on the bus woot woot..then getting on a plan, keeping in mind that I've never ever been on a plane before...well I lied when we went to the National Airplane Museum (or something of that sort) in Wisconsin I got to ride a 2 seater plane for free...so I have been on a plane just not on a multi-decked sardine can...so excited...don't mind the sarcasm I really am excited...but yes...I think/know this trip will be a blast...we get to go to a discoteca in Madrid...heck yes...5 floors of music and dancing...can't wait!  then go on to places such as Cordoba, Granada, Santiago and such...I hope it's warm there I know it won't be extremely warm but get pretty warm at some point in time...

I'm really gonna miss Travis though...and my family and friends and such...but I'm sure I'll have an extreme blast...I'm excited to buy souveniers for everyone...oddly enough, that's one of the things I'm most excited for!!! I'm afraid I'll find stuff that I know I should give to other people and sit there and be like I really want that...haha...just kidding...no I probably will be like wow that's so cool I should give that to so and so...

I'm really excited to try the hot chocolate there...supposively it's supposed to be like pudding almost it's so thick and rich...yay...and the best part we get to run loose in Santiago!!! heck yes!!!  My mom said I didn't have enough pairs of pants so she said she'd take me to go get some...I didn't complain really  : P 

My sister found a house in the country that her and her boyfriend (Matt) are renting out of Mt. Pleasant...I'm so excited for them! it's cute!  I can't wait to go see it when she moves into it!! or I can't wait to see her Easter Break!!! and get my prom dress that weekend!

Alright well before I pee my pants of excitement I should be off to a bright early morning tomorrow!

So got back from UP Finals yesterday. It went well pretty fantastic I'd say...I got 1st in the 100 free beating Amanda Lancour...heck yes! I got 2nd in the 200 free...maybe a little bitter about that cause I was seated 1st...but I got a fantastic time so it kinda makes up for it! My relay's got 4th for both, it was pretty fun...Travis got to come...that was fun...I'm kinda bummed I was so set on getting a record this year...and it didn't happen...this was my one chance to be noted...and I failed...oh well...life will go on things will be fine I'll be fine.

On another note...It's over...it's my senior year and I'm done with swimming...it still hasn't hit me yet...but I've been looking forward to this day for who knows how long.  and it's here...it's over...just like that...I'm having a hard time believeing that I'm going to go to school this week and not go to practice...not even have hope for next swim season...it's just done...fini...over...hmmm...sad...

sad story

So yah...today just kept bogging me down with greater news everywhere I turned...just kept getting better and better...if you didn't pick up on the deep deep sarcasm in that statement, well that's sad

First off our youth minister who even though he bugs me soooo much I have been kind enough to keep my mouth shut regardless, I do his bidding, I'm there when he needs me and when I can make it and it's not completely inconvenient for me...I don't miss things for basketball games or to do something with my friends I show up regardless...yah...and so my friend comes up to me today and says "I have some great news that's going to make you really mad." turns out on our church's new website Steve has set up a new leadership team for our youth group and on the website they have a list of all the people involved...There's a senior  a junior a couple sophomores some middle schoolers freshman...and guess what...me nor my two friends who have been involved in this youth group and have committed our time since we were like babies are not on that list...and we actually haven't even heard of this leadership team.  We were on the old leadership team but all of a sudden this new team pops up and we have no idea about it or that our old one was even obliterated...My friends parents Bob and Marie who are like my second parents told her that they don't care anymore if she goes to his classes and they are super oober mad. GRRR and it's not for recognition that I'm mad...I'm mad because there have been things like this going on for who knows how many months

Next great piece of news...the same friend actually (she is not to blame for anything in the next paragraph, so if you're reading this and you know who I'm talking about don't go and have a problem with her because she's not the problem I'm not going to have more people involved in this then need to be)  but she comes up when I was going to sit with my "friends" at their lunch table and she tells me "you don't want to sit there, that table has been tense...they have been talking about how you are the root of all the rumors and issues for the day" Thank you me...don't know what I did...I was trying to help

tried to offer Jen my support, tried to offer Nate my support...didn't backstab either of them just did what I could to help...and you know when people were opinionated you know what...I STUCK UP FOR EITHER OF THEM...not one...not the other ....BOTH I was trying to help both of them so you know what I say ...from now on SCREW YOU I'm not helping anyone...I got myself in the middle of this...I won't lie I saw it coming...but guess what I don't care anymore...you want my help ...maybe I just won't offer it anymore

so yah I've been having a great day...great...yah that's one word for it...oh wait what's a synonym for great....hmmm lets see how about SUCKY!!! grrrr why me....why does the person just trying to help and yes I won't lie I got opinionated at one point but I still tried to stick up for them , you know what screw it my being nice and helpful got me into this situation and you know what it got me into the youth group situation to...I've been nice and helpful and youth group too...you know where's it gotten me...here...so screw it...

Well for those who don't know me well, I'm on our high school's robotics team...yes nerd team usa that's right...haha...we make a lot of jokes about it...and not only that...it's an international team...canadians and americans...so not only can we make fun of them for being nerds...they're canadian nerds...haha...it's okay though cause they make fun of us for being americans...it's all in good fun!

But today I went to our meeting and I try to find something to do in the machine shop, just something....cause this is the career I'm interested in, but I go in there and I feel like they're looking at me like I'm incompetent...stupid...ugghhh...it's really irritating...and I know I should try to be assertive, it's just I find it hard to be assertive in that kind of situation...stupid males...nah not really...I'd probably just screw something up anyways, I guess it's all for the best...it's just that we go to a lot of competitions and I'm not gonna even wanna go if I made no contribution at all to it...grr...it wouldn't feel right to me...even though I guess I paid 300 dollars for it...but I dunno we'll see how things go, I have done some stuff in machine shop. I don't know I'll just keep going and see what happens...

So yessm

Yesterday's swim meet went quite well...I got 3 firsts and a 2nd...1st in the 200, 1st in the 100, and 1st in the 200 free relay.

The senior night aspect of it all was rather uneventful...I didn't cry...really no one did, except the few sobby mothers...I don't even think my mother was one of them...shocking...it was almost sad...I felt sad and unimportant....no one thought enough of us to even shed a tear....when I was an underclassmen I showed some respect for the seniors I sobbed...the more tears the more respect, it's how it works...and yet yesterday....nada...how truly saddening to be a senior on a dry-eye night...

anyways...today I realized the advantage to have a boyfriend who you don't make involved in every aspect of your life...and he doesn't expect you to be either...I saw gary, tyler, sandra, and steph in the hall when I was walking with travis and he mentioned that he could tell they were fighting, and he knew they were fighting about the rube goldberg project that travis and them and liz and all of them are involved in and I feel bad because the only thing travis ever has to say about it is how he feels that all they do is fight and no one's input is really taken and the fact that they were fighting about it makes me glad I'm a relaxed girlfriend lol...not to be cocky or ego or anything it's just how I am...I'm not going to expect trav to be involved in every little club or anything I'm in, he has his life I have mine....it's how it works lol oh well if it works for them...they still seem perfectly happy to be with each other. so hey good for them to be able to work through an argument, I guess when it comes down to it, if they can work through it it's good...

On another note...actually kinda back to the senior thing, I think there will definitely be some tears at finals...I'm not gonna try and deny it this time...finals will be my last...as lindsay put it last night "this is the end becky like the real end...like imagine this line is like the wall that represents the end and this is us and we're just like slamming our faces into it" okay so maybe I worded it a little differently but that was the general idea.  But yah finals will definitely be sad...afterwards...maybe a little on the bus...but I don't think I'll cry till afterwards when I'm sitting there going...oh my gosh this is my last chance...last....chance...ever...I'm really kinda bummed that I've already missed my chance to get those home records...it kinda sucks...but oh well...I figure even if I don't get those records at finals...I still have my name up there with a relay...the best relay ever may I add especially the first one "Wilson, Coullard, Rogers, Lozen" heck...yes...with Angela...that record aint ever coming down...at least if coach has anything to do with it...I'm sorry I can't say exactly what, but whoever is on the team after this year who has been on the team before it's gonna kinda suck for them after this...I can't say why though...I'm just glad I'm graduating this year...

Well school is....school...hmmm....all I have to say is senioritis is in full blown right now...and it is slamming me in the face...Machine shop...well yah...I was given a project that I was supposed to do before I helped with robotics stuff...yah haven't even started it...i've been helping with robotics pretty much or doing nothing...actually I lied...katie is supposed to help me with the project when she gets a chance...but she's been busy with the robotics so I haven't had anyone to help me start it...dang...oh well Panik nor Gary have said anything to me about it getting finished/handed in...let alone started for that matter...ha...oh well I'm not really worried...

Everybody keeps talking about soccer...and I'm kind of excited but I'm really trying not to focus on it...because then I won't focus on swimming...so yah...but I'm pumped for it to start...well get my butt whipped by coach and conditioning...that's for sure...but oh well...I'll be in hott shape...all skinny and sexy for my bikini...heck yes!!!

That's another thing I'm trying not to focus on...summer...oh my goodness I'm so excited to be graduated and out in the sun with travis hopefully on his boat....I'm so excited for bonfires and such...DARN YOU SARA!!! I blame you for all this excitement and such...also for prom!!! I'll have an actual date this year...oh man all this excitement I just can't handle it...

Oh yah I've figured out I really need to go around with boxing gloves on my hands because I've gotten into the bad habit of "accidentally" punching  people in the face...and I'm not even kidding I'm REALLY punching them...Joe, Travis...well basically it's just the two of them...but it's happened more than twice...make that three times to each...of course there are the times that I do mean it...like when I flipped Nathan over my back...or beat Gary at wrestling...don't listen to him I really did beat him...he's just a wuss and doesn't know how to wrestle...psshhh...kneed him in the face...pshhh I was trying to flip him over...his face just happened to be in the way...and yes I'm not gonna lie...I  bit him....but he had gloves on...what a pansy...haha just kidding...he put up a good fight...it was a tough one to win.... : P....

Well the bell is gonna ring soon...

ugh I have that stupid Valentine's Banquet tonight...not looking forward to that...I have to bus around in a stupid dinner where Steve will just yell at us for one thing or another...sometimes I wonder why I bother...he doesn't like the girls...or so that's the conclusion I've come to...well he doesn't care about us unless we're doing something wrong that is...when he needs us he pays attention to us...but otherwise we're just there...just another number to his attendance...oh well...I'm gonna be me...if he gets mad at me...I'm not gonna take it...he thinks punishing us is the best way to encourage us...but if he keeps it up I'm just gonna walk out...well I'll just turn to bob and marie...who I think he thinks is his mortal enemy or something...loser...I love bob and marie they are like my second parents...I'm gonna miss them whenever I leave...but that's a whiles away

okay the bell is really going to ring soon now

 g2g

here's something arianne showed me!

thanks

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